I got lots of sleep last night – needed it – my body has been fighting an illness. Thought I’d feel refreshed this morning but instead, I felt discouraged and depressed. Not because of the illness, I’m sure (although one thing does add to another), but because of a different, ongoing situation very close to me that doesn’t seem to be getting better, in spite of days, weeks, and months of prayer.
Does anything like this ever happen to you?
In your weakness, a voice speaks to you and it says, “God doesn’t hear your prayers. He isn’t answering your prayers. You might as well give up.”
I knew the voice was not from God because it brought fear – fear of the unknown, fear of the future, fear that God doesn’t care. But God doesn’t give me fear. He gives me a spirit of power and of love and of a sound mind. (2 Timothy 1:7) So I simply pray,
Thank you for the spirit of power and of love and of a sound mind.
I continue to speak to my Abba Father:
Lord, I know you love me and you love my family. We need you.
When I speak, a single tear fills each eye.
And then I read just a short verse someone has posted: “See, I (the LORD) am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it?” (Isaiah 43:19)
Yes, I perceive it Lord! Thank you!
Then I go to His Word to read more about the new thing He is doing. I read that He is making a way in the desert and the wasteland we have been going through. He is providing (Living) water so that we might praise Him. (We do and we will!) He reminds me that He has chosen me, made me, formed me, and will help me. He pours that Living Water and His Spirit out on me and on my children and grandchildren. And they will spring up! (Isaiah 43, 44)
Then I listen to a message because I know that faith comes from hearing the message of Christ. (Romans 10:17) And the message adds to my continuing prayer today:
Lord, let us remember who we are, whose we are, and what our territory is. For each of us who has suffered loss, take back that ground for us. Release the boldness of the Lion of the Tribe of Judah in our prayers – that our prayers will be fierce – that they will rise from a whisper to a roar.
And as my day progresses, my prayers become more fierce, intensifying from a whisper to a roar, knowing that He is making the way for us through the desert and the wasteland.